I will never for get the words spoken in April 2018 Conference by President Henry B. Eyring. He said this: "I know those things by the only way any of us can know them. The Holy Ghost has spoken to my mind and heart that they are true—not just once but often. I have needed that continuing comfort."
If even President Eyring needs assurances often then I feel a little better admitting that I do too!
We all need these daily assurances that God is at the helm of our lives and we are in His care. I have been praying a lot as I write my book. I want to be of use to my Heavenly Father for his purposes and not for pride & vanity.
I have to say that it's a struggle to fight back the words of my own pride telling me that I am only a glory of men seeker.
I fasted and prayed this last Sunday for more assurance that I was on the right path. Then on Tuesday I received
a phone call asking me to come speak in a ward.
I was so happy! As I came home to do my regular night reading of the Book of Mormon I happened to be studying in Ether. The Chapter I was supposed to read next, Ether 12. I can not believe how well timed all of that was. I imagine this is by great effort on the part of angels unseen that these things occur.
Verse 6 says it all: "6. And now, I, Moroni, would speak somewhat concerning these things; I would show unto the world that faith is things which are hoped for and not seen; wherefore, dispute not because ye see not, for ye receive no witness until after the trial of your faith."
I testify that this is so very true! I mean in the worst conditions you can writhe in massive suffering but you are on your own until the very second when you finally turn your heart to God and ask him in faith to direct you. It's because He will NEVER force Himself upon you. He can inspire others to become that bold with you but He will never force.
We expect God to show up at our will. We live in an instant society. We don't like the answers that take several years to happen. We need to trust in His timing and exercise faith.
I knew He would find a gentle way of answering me this week and I am so thankful! I show my gratitude by recording it in my journal and with you today. I read Ether 12 again while in the Gilbert Temple today.
What a blessing it is to be alive with little daily assurances!!